To my next girlfriend:
致我下一任女友:
Hi. I'm Carter. I don't eat pickles, and I don't eat pork.
嗨。我是 Carter。我不吃泡菜,我也不吃豬肉。
I think you're one of the most beautiful girls I've ever talked to. I reiterate things when I mean them: I think you're one of the most beautiful girls I've ever talked to.
我覺得妳是我說過話的女生中最漂亮的一個。我常常重述事情,特別是我真心這樣認為的時候:妳真的是我說過話的女生中最漂亮的一個。
I am an artist and a hopeless romantic. I spend most of my day in my head overanalyzing almost everything. I know I'm weird. I'm learning to love that about myself.
我是個藝術家,也是個無可救藥的浪漫主義者。我一整天都在腦中過度分析每件事情。我知道我很怪。我也在學習要愛那個怪異的自己。
I got a big-ass head. I also got a big-ass...heart.
我頭很大。也有很大的...心胸。
I deal with depression—pretty heavy sometimes. And I have really bad anxiety, but at the same time, I'm a people person. I'm trying to understand how I'm such a contradiction, but maybe you will learn to love this. In the same way, I'm learning to love myself.
我與憂鬱症共存--有時候症狀很嚴重。我有很嚴重的焦慮症狀,但同時,我也善於和人交際。我也想知道為什麼自己這麼矛盾,但也許妳會學著愛上這樣的我。同樣地,我也在學著愛我自己。
And on the topic of love, if we're gonna be together, I want you to understand that this relationship isn't gonna start in emotions. I'd like it to start as a decision. I need you to decide to love me in the same way that someone decides to go to work every day.
至於說到愛,如果我們會在一起,我希望妳了解,這段感情並不是僅僅始於怦然心動。我希望感情始於決定。我需要妳決定愛我,就像某人決定每天去工作一樣。
I need you to understand that change is going to happen. We're going to change as people. This relationship may not end in marriage; it may not end at all. But if it ends, it will end in change. We're not going to leave this the same people that we came in. I need you to be open to this change in the same way that I need to be open to this change.
我需要妳了解,終究會有改變。生而為人我們必定會有所改變。這段感情可能不會走到婚姻;也許根本不會結束。但如果結束了,也會以改變結束。離開時的我們已與來時的我們不同。我需要妳對這個改變抱持寬心的態度,如同我也會放寬心面對這樣的改變。
I need you to be understanding because some days I don't know myself, so I know I'll be hard to recognize.
我需要妳理解我,因為有時候我也不了解自己,所以我知道要接受我很困難。